Tuesday, March 25, 2008

More Paradox

I'm way behind on emails, comments, and phone calls. If I owe you one, I'll catch up soon, I promise.

Yet another feather in the cap of bipolar paradox:
The less sleep I get, the more wired I become.

Saturday, March 22, 2008

Cleanup In Aisle...

I'm still struggling to link together multiple thoughts into a cohesive paragraph, but the promise of improvement is there.

This brings up the need for clean-up. I left a lot of things hanging over the last few months, a lot of emails not returned, comments not answered, even bridges burned. Sorry for all that. I'll do what I can to right things, when I can.

The recent lack of sleep gave me time to work on re-orging my web hosting business. It wasn't quality time, in 4 hours I'd get 15 decent minutes of work, but I still got a lot done. The site is still a work-in-progress but it's good enough for launch. For those who don't know, webhosting is providing the server space for a website. Every website needs to be "hosted" on a server. When you see those websites or blogs with their own domain name - mysitename.com, those people made arrangements with a hosting company to host that site. I stopped accepting web hosting customers several years ago, I had as many as I wanted to personally support. Well, I outsourced a lot of my support to people who know a lot more than I, and that means I am able to support more customers. I now have lightening-fast 24/7 support. I'll still personally handle most of the support issues during the day, there's so few of them, but the server techs will handle it outside of that. A win-win. Anyway, if anyone knows someone needing webhosting or design, have them look me up:
Homepagewebs - http://gjx.us

For those who observe Easter may you have a joyous Easter holiday.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Transcendental Blues

In the darkest hour of the longest night
If it was in my power I'd step into the light
Candles on the altar, penny in your shoe
Walk upon the water - transcendental blues.

Happy ever after 'til the day you die
Careful what you ask for, you don't know 'til you try
Hands are in your pockets, starin' at your shoes
Wishin' you could stop it - transcendental blues.

If I had it my way, everything would change
Out here on this highway the rules are still the same
Back roads never carry you where you want 'em to
They leave you standin' there with them ol'
Transcendental Blues.

--Steve Earle

Monday, March 17, 2008


Why the Irish-envy? Violence, bagpipes, terrible food, and warbling-voiced folk singers.


Sunday, March 16, 2008


Symmetry is not optional.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

7 Words To Please A Manic Mind

Shit, piss, fuck, cunt, cocksucker, motherfucker, and... tits.

Sunday, March 09, 2008

Something's Not Right

For the last 2 months, at least in the few times I've been able to write, I've talked about how I was on the higher end of the mood spectrum. It started with a slightly elevated feeling about the time I started taking Lithium 3 months ago, and has steadily grown since then. While all the symptoms are intermittant, I'm dizzy, shaky, my heart rate is way up, I get these mini "jolts" or spasms, and insomnia is bad. It's not entirely unpleasant, but my body is coursing with energy, and nervous movement is pronounced and non-stop. But, unlike bipolar hypomania, I have no mental advantage. My mind is struggling to remember anything.

I have no idea what this is, maybe it's a severe mania that the Lithium has knocked down to this level? Maybe it's hyperthyroidism? Lithium toxicity? I'm calling the doc tomorrow, hopefully they can do some quick blood work and get a handle on this.