Wednesday, January 11, 2006


This medication isn't helping prevent depression. I don't think there is a med that can do that for me. They can take away my highs, tame my irritability, sap my sex drive, make me gain weight, even make me more affectionate. But the single thing that pushed me towards seeking pharmaceutical help was depression. And that's the thing I can't control.

So, is a bipolar med SUPPOSED to control depression? I guess from interacting with other bipolars I can't expect it to do that - people get depressed anyway. So why are we on this stuff? I mean really - what is this accomplishing? Have we become pawns of the drug companies? We know they are in business to sell drugs, and we're an easy mark. Most of us are adult enough to have left the world of street drugs behind, but are we chasing the same thing with our meds? That desire to feel different?

I'm sliding into a depression, it took me two hours to find the motivation to write this. And now that I'm doing that, I'm getting pissed. Pissed at the entire situation. The drug companies aggressively marketing to those with mental issues. The medical professionals that so freely prescribe. And pissed at myself for getting sucked into this culture.

But that's enough of the negativity. I detest constant negativity, and I don't want this blog to turn into a whine fest.

Fun will be had tomorrow.


The Queen said...

I am sorry you are feeling so down Jon. I am finally coming out of my depression and things are looking up. I will light a candle for you and you will be in my thoughts:)

Jon said...

Thanks, Queen, but I'm doing better.